wow has it really been since 2006 that I have posted into the blogger I have been busy on other websites and almost forgot this one. But I just remembered looking through old papers and I also remembered that this account is set to private unlike some of my other blogs they are set to public.
So my life has been a little crazy since the last post I no longer live in my own place we got kicked out and I moved into my sister Kathy's place. We did find out that the old place had mold though like toxic mold no wonder my plants kept dying and I had a lot of physical problems while there.
I have now lost my very best friend William Barlow He passed away in April of this year and it has been the worst few months of my life since he passed away, cause not only that but my Dad died in November of last year and then my Grandpa like a week later. Oh and also a friend of mine since high school also passed away like a week before my Dad. 2007 Seemed like the longest year of my life a lot of things changed for me like being away from Frankie has given me a whole new perspective on our relationship like I don't know how much I am in love with him any more. I was very griefstricken with the death of my Dad and then all of a sudden Wil is gone the person who I as of late have been confiding in the most. I still cry a lot over his passing I just miss him so much and cannot believe he is actually gone from this earth. In fact typing this now is really hard cause I am getting all teary eyed. Obviously the pictures on the left of this post the top one is my Mom and Dad taken in about late September of 07' and the bottom picture is of Wil and I don't know exactly when it was taken but I love it cause it embodies everything that Wil was.
My Dad and my Best Friend are gone now but will never be forgotten. Not as long as I live any way.
So now that I remember that this is here and no one else knows about it I will probably be checking in from time to time just to update on how life is going and whether or not I have chosen to separate myself permanently from Frankie or not. I am still praying every day for God to show me the path, but it is sure hard to not slip into the old really dark Cindy that existed once before.